LESSON #103: Dream, document it, and realize it
“Every moment of your life is infinitely creative and the universe is endlessly bountiful. Just put forth a clear enough request, and everything your heart desires must come to you.” - Mahatma Gandhi
I just realized something: I’m living my fucking dream.
I’ve talked a bit about how I’m “stuck” abroad, how I’m broke, not sure when I’ll be even able to come back home, but this is what I asked for. This is what I wanted. And this is where documenting one’s life comes in handy.
Writing has been my therapy since an early age. It helped me understand, above all, what I felt and what I wanted. Later in life, I began to use words as a tool to inspire. So it’s probably no surprise that, when feeling uninspired recently, I looked back on some of my photos, my blog entries, and inspiration files. So many of the words and images were centered on this part of the world. India, Nepal, Thailand, Sri Lanka - they are all within reach (or reached!)
Still, I felt lately like something had been missing from this equation. “Shouldn’t I feel more proud? More of a sense of accomplishment?” I asked myself. The truth is that I don’t - and I shouldn’t. This is love, ego-less love, because I didnt plan on any of these memories happening. There is no sense of pride that I can claim because there was no effort. There’s nothing to corrupt the beauty of each and every moment; no inflated or confined sense of myself to divide me from the source. It’s pure.
So what the fuck am I complaining about? Yes, I want to be surrounded by the comfort of my friends, the warmth of the Cali sun, and the freedom of driving myself wherever I want to go. But then I looked at the set of memories that fate has packaged for me into these past 6 months: an island paradise; thousands of paper lanterns set alight into the night sky; making new friends from all over the world; and the list goes on. It’s all love! To appreciate all of this, however, I had to do what India has forced me to do: slow down, find balance, and relax.
In all the trials and triumphs, I have learned enough to fill a book. Maybe that’ll be next on the agenda. First, we’ll see what fate has to say about it.